the day after.

The day after the afternoon before and my appointment has been and gone. Although only an assessment it was hard and left me feeling drained - physically, mentally and emotionally. i did cry, felt like an idiot for doing so and gave myself the king of all heaches doing it so I am not sure if it did me any good or not but my assessment says I have to go back, maybe for some time to work through my emotions until I am in a better place.


This morning has been awful. I have barely slept, been up and doing things like washing since 5am and still left the house at 7.15 to come to work. I know I am going to be on my own this weekend as Andrew is going away to see friends and I know there is plenty of things for me to do including the ironing, cleaning, card making (I am going to need to find more occasions to give people cards as I already have loads made) and generally being alone which might be good for me or it might not, I have not been left alone in what feels like so long I don't remember how to be comfortable with just me anymore.


I have a feeling that I might treat myself to a duvet day, might encourage me to do nothing and remind me that once in a while I am allowed to be selfish and to put myself first.